5 Reasons I Am No Longer Scared Of Living Alone

Just over a week ago, I wrote a post titled ‘5 Reasons I’m Scared Of Living Alone’. I wrote that post so that after a week of living alone was over, I could look back and see if it really was as bad as I thought it would have been. I had hoped that the post and this one would encourage me to be more adventurous and less afraid next time something new happens.

If you are reading this post and it is making no sense to you, maybe you should go back and read the ‘5 Reasons I’m Scared Of Living Alone‘ post.

Anyway, I digress, the week is finally over and it has been tiring and strange. Tiring and strange in the best possible way. I feel like a completely different person now that I have done this.

My first worry was that I would feel lonely. This was a little bit of an issue. I was pretty much way too busy to be feeling lonely most of the time. However, when I was left alone, I began to feel alone and started to miss everyone back home. I did manage to overcome this though. I mostly distracted myself with books and tv. I also found it helpful to FaceTime and call my family and friends.

My second worry was that I wouldn’t know what to do with myself. This was hardly an issue at all. My whole week was pretty much sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, oh and work. When I did have time to myself, it was spent reading which sounds pretty good to me.

The third worry was not getting on with the people I was working with. This did actually happen. One lady I was working with took a disliking to me straight away. At first this was a big issue to me. For some reason, I was desperate to make her like me. However, nothing I did was good enough. After a couple of days, I began to realise that it doesn’t matter if one lady doesn’t like me. I got on with absolutely everyone else. You can’t be liked by everyone.

I also worried about having nothing to do and being bored. There was hardly anything to do around the area I was staying in. However, I managed to go on many walks and got a lot of reading and tv watching done.

My last worry was missing the people back home. Obviously I missed the people at home. Thank Gosh for phones..

I feel like a completely different person now that the week is over. I feel changed for the better.

The Other Perspective

Sometimes when someone does something to us that we don’t like it can be hard to see why the person would do it. 

A year or so ago, someone did something to me which ruined my life a little. I was put in a terrible situation. That situation completely changed my life and I have never forgive the person until now. 

Recently, I was put in a situation where I ended up doing the same thing to someone that the person did to me. I didn’t mean to and it wasn’t completely my fault. 

That make me think a little. If I did it to someone who I care about then the person who did it to me maybe wasn’t meant to hurt me. Maybe they did it with good intentions. 

I completely forgive that person for what they did now. It might not have been their fault at all. 

I think sometimes when someone does something that seems melicious, they might not have meant for it to be that way. Maybe we could try to look at it for the other persons perspective. There are two sides to every story and I think more people need to think about that. 

Of course there is the chance that they are just a horrible human who wanted to see you cry, but maybe not..

Maybe we should all forgive each other a little bit more. Life is too short to hold a grudge

The 30 Before 30 List

Everyone seems so caught up in the world of work, school, friendships, relatiomship and day-to-day tasks that no ome really notices how fact time is going. We often find ourself saying “I’ll do it later” because thats just the easiest thing to do. Those of us who are under 30, are still in the prime of our life. We need to take advantage of this.

So here is a lost of things I want to do before I turn 30.

1. Learn how to drive.
2. Attend a huge music festival.
3. Get my dream figure.
4. Write a novel and actually finish it.
5. Visit a haunted house.
6. Hold a koala.
7. Learn a foreign language.
8. Visit Japan.
9. Go on a hot air balloon ride.
10. Learn to play an instrument.
11. Host a dinner party.
12. Keep up writing a journal.
13. Complete a 30 day challenge.
14. Get married.
15. Backpack through Europe.
16. Read the top ten classic novels.
17. Volunteer for a cause that matters to me.
18. Participate in a flash mob.
19. Actually learn how to do my make up.
20. Become confident shooting in manual.
21. Sew a dress for myself.
22. Bake something that isn’t a cake.
23. Do a 365 project.
24. Be vegetarian/ vegan for a month.
25. Go 24 hours without technology.
26. Send a message in a bottle.
27. Build a giant sandcastle.
28. Give blood.
29. Attend a protest.
30. Treat my boyfriend.

What’s on your 30 before 30 list?

5 Reasons I’m Scared Of Living Alone

Tomorrow I will be off to North Devon for a week to stay in a hotel alone for work training.  I have never lived alone so this completely terrifies me. Sure I have stayed alone at home but I have never been without my family or friends for a whole week at a time. 

I decided that I would create a list of all the reasons that I am terrified. At the end of the week, I can look back at my list and realise that half the things I feared really weren’t as bad as I thought they would be. 

1. Feeling lonely. No one likes to be alone. I am so scared by the idea of sitting in a room on my own with no one to talk to.  

2. Not knowing what to do with myself. I have never been to the area before so I have no idea what it is going to be like there. What if there’s nothing to do around the hotel? What if there’s not even a supermarket? What if I’m trapped in the middle of nowhere?

3. Not getting on with people I have to work with. I think everyone worries about this when starting a new job. I’m also sure that it is a completely normal thing to worry about. However, that doesn’t make it any less scary. 

4. Having nothing to do and being bored.  This links back to number 2. If I end up left in a room on my own, I will be so bored. Sure I have books and to but that isn’t going to keep me amused forever, especially not with my attention span. 

5. Missing the people at home. There’s so many people that I am going to miss even if I am only going away for a week. What am I going to do without my family and my lovely boyfriend?

Now to wait a week and see if my view changes..

Book Haul

I bought a couple of books the other week and decided to do a little post to show you all evrything that I bought.

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The first book that I bought was called Elizabeth Is Missing by Emma Healey. I have wanted to read this book for a while but I just hadn’t got around to reading it. I am currently reading it now and I can say that it is definitely worth buying. I also bought The Rosie Effect by Graeme Simsion. Both of these books were 2 for £7 from Tesco so I feel like this was an amazing buy.

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I then went to Waterstone to look for the Penguin Little Black Classics. If you don’t know what these are then I shall tell you. To celebrate Penguin’s 80th they are making 80 ‘Little Black Classics’ for 80p each. I went a little bit mad and bought 10. Hpwever, that’s not too bad considering I have been pack since writing this post and bought some more. Now my collection is growing.

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I hope you enjoyed this haul post!

Book Review: Paper Towns by John Green

6442769Format: Paperback
Pages: 305
Rating: 2/5 stars

“Who is the real Margo? Quentin Jacobsen has spent a lifetime loving the magnificently adventurous Margo Roth Spiegelman from afar. So when she cracks open a window and climbs into his life—dressed like a ninja and summoning him for an ingenious campaign of revenge—he follows. After their all-nighter ends, and a new day breaks, Q arrives at school to discover that Margo, always an enigma, has now become a mystery. But Q soon learns that there are clues—and they’re for him. Urged down a disconnected path, the closer he gets, the less Q sees the girl he thought he knew…”

My first impressions of the book was ‘wow, I hate Margo’, ‘Isn’t Quentin just Miles’ and ‘What a unrealistic story’. My feelings didn’t really change as the story went on. I was completely disappointed by this book. I purchased it awhile ago and have wanted to read it for a long time. I finally got wround to reading it and it was such a waste of time.

I’ll start by talking about Margo. Her character was just so unrelatable. I couldn’t muster any sympathy for Margo. Not only was she completely unrelatable, she is pretty much the exact same character as Alaska. The book might as well have been called ‘Looking For Margo’. Secondly, Quentin was so whinny and his obsession with Margo was ridiculous considering he hardly knew her. The only character I could actually stand was Radar.

When I finally managed to get half way through the story, I felt like giving up. I couldn’t wait to get to the end just so that I would never have to hear the name Margo Roth Spielman ever again. I kept on reading though so that I could at least give the book a chance since John Green is such a good writer.

Obviously there are some things that I liked about the book or I would have given it 0 stars. One of the things which wasn’t even a big part of the story is when Lacy and Quentin talk about the cashier at the gas station. I rather liked how Quentin promptly reacted when Lacy made a sexist comment. This made me have a tiny bit of respect for Quentin so the book got one star just for that. The other star was for almost the whole last section of the book. I seemed to enjoy this part of the book a lot more. I liked the friends relationship while they were on their journey together. It’s just disappointing that the book started to get better towards the end.

However, the ending was utter rubbish. What a complete let down. Just as I thought that the book was getting better it ended awfully.

My love for Paper Towns sleeps with the fishes…

Paperchase Haul

Over the course of a few weeks I bought a few cute bits from Paperchase that I just couldn’t resit sharing. Paperchase is one of my all time favoirite stationary shops. Anyone who knows me knows that I am in love with stationary.

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When I walked into Paperchase, I noticed that they had a rack fully of post cards. They were all completely different styles yet all cute. I bought myself 4. They were 60p each so not a bad buy. The first two I bought were tea themed. I love tea so these were ones that I just had to own. I also bought a dinosaur themed one and a bicycle themed one. I thought that all of them would be lovely to post to penpals.

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I also bought myself two packs of British themed stickers. Once again I thought that these were cute to send to penpals. These packs were only £1 each.

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The last thing that I bought was this little rhino puzzle eraser. I absolutelylove these little puzzle erasers, I have so many of them. This one was only £1.

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I know this was only a little haul but I just couldn’t resist sharing these adorable things. I hope you enjoy this little haul and feel inspired.